My lesson for now: You are human. Flawed and Fabulous.

The other day an absolutely spectacular quote drifted through my news feed on Facebook. I had seen it before and yet it sparkled and glittered that day as though it was written with my name on it.

I am doing better with this survivorship thing. For the most part, I'm healthy and whole. (okay, minus lymphedema, arthritis and a reconstructed breast) Despite those few flaws, I am perfectly fabulous. Yet... I sometimes feel so much less than that.

I smile often, I laugh a lot... but I get sad. Not depressed but just sad a bit. I think about the past, what my life was like before the summer of 2008. And I wonder what it will be like in 2018.

When my boyfriend and I aren't seeing eye-to-eye on life... I fantasize about running away... only to remember that leaving means searching for a new medical team and the comfort of my safety net and family support. Which keeps me anchored here. The fantasy of the unknown doesn't draw me as strongly as it once did.

That makes me a little sad too.

Then I saw this quote... and I chose to focus on being alright. Imperfections and all...

I am Flawed & Fabulous. 

I really am. Every day more people are diagnosed with breast cancer. Or some other type of cancer. And every day some people die from this disease too.

In between that living and dying and struggling to beat this disease... life is there. Love is there. Opportunity is there to just finally accept who you are completely... flaws and all.

I've never felt more broken than I do now. And in some ways, I've never felt more free. It is odd. And wonderful too.

The woman who penned this great piece, doesn't get much credit online for her words. As a fellow writer and creative spirit, I feel sad for her for that. I searched for the writer of this piece so that I could give full credit to her. Her name is Courtney Walsh and you can find her here: https://www.facebook.com/dearhumancaw/timeline

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